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And then there were four…

So much has happened since my last post. Mostly good, some crap, but the best news is our newest addition arrived on Wednesday, July 16th at 11:20 a.m.

Sophia Madeline was 9 lbs, 5 oz and 21 inches long. I was in labor for 3 hours and 37 minutes after being induced (more on that in a moment) and we couldn’t be happier. She is beautiful and looks so much like Olivia that Bill has said if we have another baby girl that looks the same as Liv and Sophie, we are finished procreating, because that is the universe’s way of telling us we will only have girls that look alike. haha. Not that he minds having all girls, I just think he is scared of what will happen in 15 years or so when we will have (possibly) three gorgeous daughters. Right now two is scary enough of a concept.

The doctor decided at my last appointment that it would be wise to induce, since if we waited much longer we would run the same risk of c-section as we would if we induced. So he called the hospital and set everything up. I checked in on Wednesday and my water was broken at 7:43 a.m. by 10 a.m. I was fully dilated and ready to push. Unfortunately, the epidural was interfering and I was not pushing correctly (oddly enough it is harder than you may realize to push correctly). It was decided that we would wait until the baby labored down a bit more and the nurse called the doctor who told her to shut off my epidural.

“Shut it off? But, I just got this thing!” I remember saying. I was promised that it wouldn’t go completely away, just enough to help me feel the pressure to push. Sure enough, I started feeling that pressure and wanted to push. They had me push a few times and then told me I had to stop and wait for the doctor. I couldn’t believe they wanted me to stop, the need to push was intense. I remember as soon as the doctor snapped his gloves on I said “I need to push!” and he told me to go for it. About three or four pushes later, Sophia was born.

We are settling into some sort of routine around here. As much of a routine as you can have with a newborn. But Sophia is a really good baby thus far. She is a big eater and poops and pees like a champ (hey, that’s very important in baby-land!) We were afraid we were going to have the same jaundice problem we had with Olivia, but luckily, Sophia didn’t need the UV light therapy.

Olivia is a wonderful big sister. She calls Sophia, “Fee-Uh” and doesn’t seem too upset by her sudden appearance. She wanted nothing to do with us in the hospital, however. She wouldn’t come near me (in fairness, I was in the hospital bed still hooked up to an IV) and Sophia was a new concept to her. However, after we got home on Thursday, she warmed up and is getting better every day. She has tried twice to pick her up: once from Bill’s chest while they were laying on the couch and once from the vibrating rocker seat. We were able to stop her in time, since we always keep a close eye on her when they are near (for that very reason). She likes to give her kisses and wants to help ‘rock-rock’ her in her seat. However, if she wants my attention and I am holding Sophia she will say, “Daddy hold Fee-uh now” and vice versa. It’s kind of cute. She pats her on the back and likes to touch her (gently! we tell her–and she does a good job).

I was so scared of how I would manage two babies, how I could love both of them as much as one. Everyone is right: you do have enough love and I don’t love one more or less than the other. Sophia has helped to calm and center me in a very surprising way. I am just so much more…balanced, would be the best way to describe it. I know that it started when I became pregnant, but now that she is here, it has just helped center me in a way I would have never imagined. Crazy, but true. Maybe I’m just more confident in my abilities as a mother, maybe I am just growing up, who knows? I just know that it feels nice to feel this confident. Sure, I still have my moments, and will have more in the days, weeks, years to come, but overall–I’m good at this and that feels amazing.

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